What is my Souls deepest desire?
I find myself desiring grace and sacredness. Simplicity, creativity and beauty. I desire to live my life as a sacred dance. Feeling more into my true being as I honor these deep desires. Creating it where ever I am or how ever much I wish my life was something else right now. I always have grace and sacredness, when I choose to experience it in the NOW. I know how the feeling of sacredness feels within me and nothing on the outside can change that. I am allowed to feel deeply into my emotions. Letting them flow through me like a rapid river. I can move like a prayer, feeling into every moment as deeply as I wish, being present in the sweetness and sacredness of this moment. Oh it feels so sweet and deeply loving. Even though I am sitting still, I can still feel my Being dancing and that sacredness of this moment as my Soul so desires. Oh how beautiful it is in this moment right here. Just me and the tenderness in my Heart. Such innocents and freedom, feeling the call of a new place I've yet to have been. Something new is calling, I can feel it. In this sacredness, I can feel my being accepting the new calling, with just being still. How pure and wonderful it is to be Me.
A part of me feels sad, because the changes I have required are so different from what I’ve known to want to experience. I feel like I’ve been born again, into a new reality I know nothing of, no knowledge how to navigate. Yet the unknown of it all what calls me the most. I feel like a new Soul in this new space and time, but also feeling like I have worked so hard to get to this life. Lifetimes of sacrifices just to be here now, in the unknown and so naked. Never thought I would want the experiences I now desire. Never knew I was allowed to want something more. Never knew I was allowed to just create and not work so hard. Never knew I had a reason to be here and there really isn’t, but to just be and experience the possibilities of the unknown. To be someone I’ve always known I was, be the magic I’ve always known I am. No one and nothing can take that from Me, for I am sacred.